I hate my anxiety and how it makes me shakey, jittery, nervous and act like a fool. I hate that it consumes my breath to match my racing heartbeat. I hate the lightheaded feeling that goes along with the hot flashes. I feel like I am going through menopause.
Nope, I’m simply freaking out for no good reason. I hope I don’t drop the change on the counter again.
I haven’t done much in the last month or two. Part of it is contentment. I won’t say I “plateaued” since the truth is I just been staying at the same weight. Well, I did gain like 3 lbs (I range between 120-127 recently, so I round to about 125, which is where it is most times) but that’s nothing too drastic.
I’m so close to getting to a healthier body! So after my back heals up I need to:
I found out PrAna down the street from me (a yoga/active clothing store) does free yoga! and has a beginners class! yay! So I want to try to attend those more. I want to be strong, and flexible. I hope this will also help my back from being so sore.
So this June I’m gonna kick my own butt. These are such easy things to do. It’ll take 1 hour or less (in theory) every day, I should be able to do it! Wish me luck.
It’s been a while since I’ve broken down over my weight. I was down to 130 at one point and came back up to 134, and it sucks. I’ve changed my diet, I’m working out more….and I gain weight. It’s so frustrating. So I cried. Caleb said he is going to wake me up in the morning and go for walks. Then go work out, then maybe walk again later that night.
I don’t want to be the chubby bride. I want to be beautiful & thin. I want to wear a Bikini in Hawaii and not give a fuck about my muffin top. I’m getting married in less then 2 months. Ugh. I hate it.
My fiancé and I agrees that we will only go out once a week to eat (we both are just eating better but also since we just moved and don’t have jobs yet we can’t spend our reserves on things we don’t “need”.) We decided this week to get dessert as I suggested skinnidip which is a frozen yogurt half a mile from our apartment (oh how I love living downtown :D) as we walked there we talked about how I couldn’t imagine just eating fruit with frozen yogurt and not candy.
Here they have an “original” flavor which is a nommy tart flavor, dunno how to explain it. Then a peach/mango, a raspberry & chocolate.
I got a small chocolate with brownie and fresh strawberries. OMG it wad amazing. Per serving…which not sure how big it is, is 25 calories and like 4g of sugar and tasted amazing. And now I get it. Chocolate & strawberries are amazing. Next time I wanna do the original with pineapple & strawberries! It was really good tasting. :)
The fiance is on a camping trip & I’m home alone… & maybe a bit tipsy. Someone come entertain me?
20 mins level 1 30 day shred
30 mins weight lifting & abs
I need to exercise like this everyday. Prbly a bit longer as well. 2 months til wedding. Eep.
Waking up late everyday jacks up your schedule. I wake up at 12 in the afternoon, so my breakfast turns into everyone’s lunch. It’s hard to eat all my calories during the day.
Right now I’m steaming a small artichoke for my snack/lunch. Dinner will be scrumptious soup and grilled cheese. :)
So yesterday I ran across this tumblr that had low-cal homemade recipes for banana bread crumble, apple sauce and some other things? The recipes were adorible pictures with bubble letters, a picture of the item on top, and the ingredients/recipe under. I thought I followed the tumblr but guess I didn’t, and wanna make some foods. Do you know what this tumblr url is?
I’m gonna try to not focus as much on my “Weight” in pounds. I’m gonna focus more on my measurements, just for a bit.
Waiting for my iPhone to finish syncing music. Think I’m gonna try the couch to 5k again. Mostly for the intervals.
I did those ab workouts that target the lower abs. They work! I did most of them last night (20-25 of each that I could do) and today my abs are sore. I’m actually happy about this cause like I said before I usually don’t notice the next day. w00t.
Yesterday I did 30 mins of “slim chance” on the Nike Training Club iPhone app. Today my bum and thighs are killing me. Along with my obliques. Good sign! Wish I ran today to get more cardio in (I don’t think shopping & buying a new fish counts as cardio.)
Bummed out but I did the ab workouts I reblogged, and I can feel it a bit. I’m always bummed cause it’s so hard to work my abs. I feel like my flab gets in the way or something. :(
Today we finally bought a vegetable steamer insert for pans. :D. We had to get a new one cause we use to borrow our old roommate’s steamer basket all the time. I’m stoked on being able to buy fresh produce and steaming it for snacks & meals. :D