I dreamt there was a girl with a shadowed face that you couldn’t see, black hair, long with bangs. Navy coat & skirt with stockings and showed between her skirt and knees. She was standing right above me, so fucking creepy. When I “woke up” (not sure if I was dreaming really or actually awake yet) she moved to against my door that’s open against the wall. Just standing there. When I finally get my phone light to work, she’s not there anymore. Pretty sure it was the color/lightness-darkness differences of the boxes pushed against the door…
That was seriously on of the scariest things that’s happened to me in a long time. And of course Caleb’s not home yet. Ughhhh.
I’m in my off mode again. I don’t really like myself, I want to hermit from mostly everyone (mostly) and don’t want people texting and talking to me. I’m slightly anxious and the depression is creeping on.
Caleb and I got in a conversation about is not being, essentially, connected. I snap at him, get moody, irritated, frustrated with him. Part of it is I think I feel like we are disconnecting for some reason. Another part is I don’t like me, and where I am in life. And I take it out on him.